เพลง dread (Explicit)

I look into the mirror, all I'm seeing is a skeleton

I keep losing weight, so they got me taking medicine

I can't go a day without relying on these sedatives

Therapy and doctors, I feel like a specimen

Every fucking night that I've been laying in my bed

Doing all I can to fight the certain sense of dread

Feeling like this panic that I have will never end

And so I fantasize about that gun up to my head

And now these pills got me feeling asleep

When I'm awake, can't get away

Even when I sleep I feel pain

Vivid visions in the past creeping into my brain

About to break, I just want to feel like I'm sane

And I just want to know what I did

Do I deserve this, like why I gotta deal with this shit, man

And I just wanna know when it happened

When I lost my mind

And will I ever truly feel happy, motherfucker

I wanna know when the pain stops

Walking around with the same thoughts

I wanna know when the pain stops

Face down, fucked up with the door locked

I wanna know when the pain stops

Walking around with the same thoughts

I wanna know when the pain stops

Face down, fucked up with the door locked

I've been fighting this with everything that I have

And I've been trying to separate the good from the bad

Well, I can't see an end to all the pain that I face

I had to cancel the tour, I couldn't take any more

I feel the weight of expectation pressing down on my chest

I feel like everybody has their own belief of what's best

Meditation, medication, should I pray to a god?

I refuse to let this win and be consumed by my thoughts

I wanna know when the pain stops

I wanna know when the pain stops

I wanna know when the pain stops

I wanna know when the pain stops

I wanna know when the pain stops

I wanna know when the pain stops

I wanna know when the pain stops

I wanna know when the pain stops

I wanna know when the pain stops

Walking around with the same thoughts

I wanna know when the pain stops

Face down, fucked up with the door locked

I wanna know when the pain stops

Walking around with the same thoughts

I wanna know when the pain stops

Face down, fucked up with the door locked